10/03/26
i am so fucking scared right now dawg
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stupid evil blog for VAGUELY pim adjacent thoughts!!!!!!!!!
i don't even know what im gnna let myself ramble about on thsi tbh . i sound sad alot.
get ready
19/03/26
uuu earlier i was doing some writing in my huggeee ass google doc of fics and poetry n whatever and i sorta forgot how much fun it was to write?! like the last time i was super into it was towards the middle to later half of last year when i was still big into disco elysium.. which checks out i guess considering the nature of that game lol.
but anywyas, after talking to friends and recently sharing my slightly more sensitive art on tumblr,, i've really been in the mood to draw more!! i feel like whenever i've had the time to draw recently it's ALWAYSS when i've been wayy too tired after a long day of uni or work.. so hopefully waxing poetic about art censorship and being raw to my friends sparked my inspiration .??
ugugg thinking about art even for a moment makes me soo excited,, i love art and looking at stuff sooo much.. i can't wait to draw more pims based off of myself. best therapy evaaaa!!! sick of worrying about what other people think abt my art.
uuu earlier i was doing some writing in my huggeee ass google doc of fics and poetry n whatever and i sorta forgot how much fun it was to write?! like the last time i was super into it was towards the middle to later half of last year when i was still big into disco elysium.. which checks out i guess considering the nature of that game lol.
but anywyas, after talking to friends and recently sharing my slightly more sensitive art on tumblr,, i've really been in the mood to draw more!! i feel like whenever i've had the time to draw recently it's ALWAYSS when i've been wayy too tired after a long day of uni or work.. so hopefully waxing poetic about art censorship and being raw to my friends sparked my inspiration .??
ugugg thinking about art even for a moment makes me soo excited,, i love art and looking at stuff sooo much.. i can't wait to draw more pims based off of myself. best therapy evaaaa!!! sick of worrying about what other people think abt my art.
29/03/26
i was on call with my friends and i was just sitting around drawing and whatever and i dont even know how, but i started thinking about pim's nerve ending. in particular, i thought about the fact that he had more hair.. nerve... things when he was younger and now he only has one as an adult? and then for some reason someone in my brain said "hey, what if his father ripped all of them out when he was younger and that's why he only has one left!" and it made me so genuinely upset and distraught that i almost yelled and cried out loud
i was on call with my friends and i was just sitting around drawing and whatever and i dont even know how, but i started thinking about pim's nerve ending. in particular, i thought about the fact that he had more hair.. nerve... things when he was younger and now he only has one as an adult? and then for some reason someone in my brain said "hey, what if his father ripped all of them out when he was younger and that's why he only has one left!" and it made me so genuinely upset and distraught that i almost yelled and cried out loud
30/03/26
was on call with friends AGAIN and we brought up how some people fr just suckkk at making good gijinkas of characters.. especially if they're gender bending a male character into a woman. half of the time it looks like the lamest gooner slop everrr with the same big boobs+thighs and a tiny waist. do these tasteless mfs only goon to the same cookie cutter slop?!? unsexiest mfs aliveee ffs.... made some ms paint doodles of a human girl pim on ms paint while heatedly talking about it .. tbh this leans more like a hypothetical cosplan than an actual humanisation.
like theyre not the best- i literally threw them together within a few minutes but like come on at least TRY to put some thought into yr gijinkas ??!? like i gave pim strabismus (hypotropia) that maybe coudlve been the outcome of her being abused or something during childhood,,, n similarly,,, maybe u could turn her exposed nerve ending into either an ahoge or stitches along her head from said abuse ?? both even? i need to do more research on some conditions pimmy could have since i would like to incorporate some form of hair pulling or baldness.. but a bob for laziness rn, lol. idk. and i figured her glasses could be used to resemble the hugeee critter eyes!! also,,, a part of me wanted to give her a bunch of piercings. i like to hc her as once having a counselling type profession where she helps out people bc she came from a rlly dark place where she didnt receive the proper help she needed. and maybe as a part of her healing journey, she discovered that she likes to cope with things by getting cool piercings and stuff, LOL. i wanna refine her a bit more tbhhhh but idk how to draw the critters as humans without losing some of the essence that comes from their original designs. sighs . back to the trenches....
was on call with friends AGAIN and we brought up how some people fr just suckkk at making good gijinkas of characters.. especially if they're gender bending a male character into a woman. half of the time it looks like the lamest gooner slop everrr with the same big boobs+thighs and a tiny waist. do these tasteless mfs only goon to the same cookie cutter slop?!? unsexiest mfs aliveee ffs.... made some ms paint doodles of a human girl pim on ms paint while heatedly talking about it .. tbh this leans more like a hypothetical cosplan than an actual humanisation.
like theyre not the best- i literally threw them together within a few minutes but like come on at least TRY to put some thought into yr gijinkas ??!? like i gave pim strabismus (hypotropia) that maybe coudlve been the outcome of her being abused or something during childhood,,, n similarly,,, maybe u could turn her exposed nerve ending into either an ahoge or stitches along her head from said abuse ?? both even? i need to do more research on some conditions pimmy could have since i would like to incorporate some form of hair pulling or baldness.. but a bob for laziness rn, lol. idk. and i figured her glasses could be used to resemble the hugeee critter eyes!! also,,, a part of me wanted to give her a bunch of piercings. i like to hc her as once having a counselling type profession where she helps out people bc she came from a rlly dark place where she didnt receive the proper help she needed. and maybe as a part of her healing journey, she discovered that she likes to cope with things by getting cool piercings and stuff, LOL. i wanna refine her a bit more tbhhhh but idk how to draw the critters as humans without losing some of the essence that comes from their original designs. sighs . back to the trenches....
19/04/26
for a couple days i felt soo happy and energised and at ease with being alive .. thinking about fun things and living happily, but it's crashed all down again!! i hate my brain sometimes, man.. alll that's helped was doin some oshikatsu which was nice. ive also been playing my tomodachi life save with pimmy in it. but then i close it to let them rest and then what. im right where i left off
for a couple days i felt soo happy and energised and at ease with being alive .. thinking about fun things and living happily, but it's crashed all down again!! i hate my brain sometimes, man.. alll that's helped was doin some oshikatsu which was nice. ive also been playing my tomodachi life save with pimmy in it. but then i close it to let them rest and then what. im right where i left off
21/04/26
i've stillll been stuck in the same low as a couple days ago which has been the worse since i have a buncha uni work i need to get to. but even though im not rlly able to get enough energy to do anything, i reallyy want to make some critter adjacent type of persona? thingy? so that when im making art of psychological pimmy stuff its my own character and not literally just Pim Pimling Smiling Friend.
i've never been good with making personas though, every time i make one it lasts for at least 2 weeks and then i don't resonate with it anymore. how tff do ppl make themselves personas that they actually like using ??! also. that 5 min humanisation from that earlier pmo
i've stillll been stuck in the same low as a couple days ago which has been the worse since i have a buncha uni work i need to get to. but even though im not rlly able to get enough energy to do anything, i reallyy want to make some critter adjacent type of persona? thingy? so that when im making art of psychological pimmy stuff its my own character and not literally just Pim Pimling Smiling Friend.
i've never been good with making personas though, every time i make one it lasts for at least 2 weeks and then i don't resonate with it anymore. how tff do ppl make themselves personas that they actually like using ??! also. that 5 min humanisation from that earlier pmo
05/05/26
its so hard to express that yr against the censorship of art when you got a mf on your left being the most puritanical anti anything person alive and another mf on your right misconstruing what you said to justify heinous shit . so then i just go outside and touch grass knowing damn well my brains thoughts on anything i see online is NOT being telepathically heard through my device and transmitted to everyone and therefore. do not matter
its so hard to express that yr against the censorship of art when you got a mf on your left being the most puritanical anti anything person alive and another mf on your right misconstruing what you said to justify heinous shit . so then i just go outside and touch grass knowing damn well my brains thoughts on anything i see online is NOT being telepathically heard through my device and transmitted to everyone and therefore. do not matter
05/05/26
no becuase genuinely like. does anyone feel like absolutely everyone and the universe itself can read their thoughts. like im scared if i think of something bad i might accidentally manifest it into happening even though i dont do manifestation stuff. girl
no becuase genuinely like. does anyone feel like absolutely everyone and the universe itself can read their thoughts. like im scared if i think of something bad i might accidentally manifest it into happening even though i dont do manifestation stuff. girl
09/05/26
i feel like every day i understand more and more why people say to never trust anything you feel about your life past 9pm. bwcause jesus chrrist. uugssfhfsaghs. i think that one tumblr ask i responded to where i posted the artwork of pim watching himself hang was the most miserable shitt ever. "ummm i cant rmemeber why i drew this to be honest i think i was just miserable and considering if pim has ever considered dying (too)" can you hearyourself right now
i feel like every day i understand more and more why people say to never trust anything you feel about your life past 9pm. bwcause jesus chrrist. uugssfhfsaghs. i think that one tumblr ask i responded to where i posted the artwork of pim watching himself hang was the most miserable shitt ever. "ummm i cant rmemeber why i drew this to be honest i think i was just miserable and considering if pim has ever considered dying (too)" can you hearyourself right now
25/05/26
i need to start making alot of my thoughts about pim actually tangible. watching the friendbot episode when it aired was physically paainful because pim having the thought process of wanting to sacrifice his passion and livelihood just so everyone can be happy brought.. SOO many thoughts into my head. uughghg. something something ddlc quick ending screen. grunts
theres an evil bad ending born from my suicidal rut that wonders if pim would lose all purpose and will to live if he actually managed to get his request for the friendbot to make everyone smile. and though i don't believe ai could ever do such a thing.. (in fact, it would only do the opposite) perhaps him being replaced even on a small scale would be eneough for him to lose all hope. and i guess this is where my own mental state comes in. trying to think of what my more canon aligned pim would do... i think pim would be resilient, probably regretting his decision. realising the incompetence of the machine he believed would help all. so going back on his decision, he fulfills his wish of bringing joy to others himself. a display of how human passion can overpower anything.
..but in my own saddened,, 'bad end' version of pim, who like me, has yet to fully reform himself mentally.. and is not the most resilient.. maybe he gives up entirely. manages to blame himself, somehow. the world became happier when i stopped trying. so maybe its better i gave up.
its like what it says in doki doki. next to sayori's limp corpse on a cold, empty background, "now everyone can be happy."
i need to start making alot of my thoughts about pim actually tangible. watching the friendbot episode when it aired was physically paainful because pim having the thought process of wanting to sacrifice his passion and livelihood just so everyone can be happy brought.. SOO many thoughts into my head. uughghg. something something ddlc quick ending screen. grunts
theres an evil bad ending born from my suicidal rut that wonders if pim would lose all purpose and will to live if he actually managed to get his request for the friendbot to make everyone smile. and though i don't believe ai could ever do such a thing.. (in fact, it would only do the opposite) perhaps him being replaced even on a small scale would be eneough for him to lose all hope. and i guess this is where my own mental state comes in. trying to think of what my more canon aligned pim would do... i think pim would be resilient, probably regretting his decision. realising the incompetence of the machine he believed would help all. so going back on his decision, he fulfills his wish of bringing joy to others himself. a display of how human passion can overpower anything.
..but in my own saddened,, 'bad end' version of pim, who like me, has yet to fully reform himself mentally.. and is not the most resilient.. maybe he gives up entirely. manages to blame himself, somehow. the world became happier when i stopped trying. so maybe its better i gave up.
its like what it says in doki doki. next to sayori's limp corpse on a cold, empty background, "now everyone can be happy."
25/05/26
i've actually been thinking alot about ddlc recently. ive been engaging with artists and people online in the fandom that express themselves in a similar way to how i do with pim. and i suppose since i resonate so deeply with stuff from that game and constantly project onto characters i love, i couldn't help but associate some things with my pimmy.
in a grossly simplified way, my relationship with pim is just a venn diagram, but blurred. he has his traits, i have mine, but the point in which we overlap is a little bit muddy. you can obviously tell there are shared traits, but its difficult to determine the exact point of where i end, and pim starts (n vice versa). it's to a point where this pim/myself amalgamation is its own critter, devoid from the pure canon pimmy.
..so with that in mind, looking at aspects of ddlc like the secret poems and sayori's character especially, made me think of myself, and sorta by extension, pim.
i just feel that like how this resonates deeply with me right now... at some point, the same went for pim.
i've actually been thinking alot about ddlc recently. ive been engaging with artists and people online in the fandom that express themselves in a similar way to how i do with pim. and i suppose since i resonate so deeply with stuff from that game and constantly project onto characters i love, i couldn't help but associate some things with my pimmy.
in a grossly simplified way, my relationship with pim is just a venn diagram, but blurred. he has his traits, i have mine, but the point in which we overlap is a little bit muddy. you can obviously tell there are shared traits, but its difficult to determine the exact point of where i end, and pim starts (n vice versa). it's to a point where this pim/myself amalgamation is its own critter, devoid from the pure canon pimmy.
..so with that in mind, looking at aspects of ddlc like the secret poems and sayori's character especially, made me think of myself, and sorta by extension, pim.
i just feel that like how this resonates deeply with me right now... at some point, the same went for pim.